So Thankful Sunday
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Finding a part 4 avi torrent for Fullmetal ღ Losing my voice do to so much laughter and talking ღ My amazingly bitchin' Halloween pumpkin ღ My first taste of Chick-fil-a ღ My nice, big, clean room ღ Blogilates ღ Thinking of kidneys ღ Pumpkin seeds waiting to be cooked ღ Waking up from a nightmare and Matthew being there ღ Uncharted 3, being so close I can taste it. ღ Nathan Drake tastes REALLY GOOD ღ
So Thankful Sunday
Sunday, October 23, 2011
I have decided to pick these back up! :)
The beautiful fall weather ღ Hammocks ღ The Hunger Games, Catching Fire & Mockingjay ღ A perfect pumpkin spice latte ღ Spending time with my mom again ღ All things Batman ღ November is around the corner ღ The super amazing hoodie Matthew gave me ღ Learning more about myself ღ Fullmetal alchemist fangirl Jessica ღ Learning to open up more ღ My progress I have made on my goals ღ That there are some descent people out there ღ
The beautiful fall weather ღ Hammocks ღ The Hunger Games, Catching Fire & Mockingjay ღ A perfect pumpkin spice latte ღ Spending time with my mom again ღ All things Batman ღ November is around the corner ღ The super amazing hoodie Matthew gave me ღ Learning more about myself ღ Fullmetal alchemist fangirl Jessica ღ Learning to open up more ღ My progress I have made on my goals ღ That there are some descent people out there ღ
An update on my years goals.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
So I have about two and a half months left before I turn 21. Wow. This year went by fast. I thought I would do a little update on my 21 new things before I turn 21 post, keeping you all up to date on my procrastination. For the original post, click here.
1.Participate in a walk for for a cause.
I am happy to say this was one of the first things I did after making this list. It was Relay for Life and was an unbelievably satisfying event :)
2.Take a kick-boxing class.
In fact now, if I'm not busy chatting away or gaming I get in at least 20 mins of kick boxing a day. It is a really fun workout that has you feel like you are exercising but having a blast doing it :D
3.Visit Shelby and Brock.
Well sadly, for obvious reason this will never happen. But I am happy at the time it was a goal of mine. On to the future now!
4.Bake a pie from scratch.
Have yet to do this but with autumn here finally, it seems like just the perfect time!
5.Take a striper-cise class.
Actually did the research for this and there are some options locally. Just gotta assemble the team!
6.Go vegetarian again.
Well eff. Holiday season is quickly approaching and no way I am having tofu turkey! I suppose I can go for a month, get my body all prepared for TURKEY DAY!
7.Try nutella.
Gawd. It is truly heaven. I heard this to be so but I could not believe it till opening my mouth!
8.Learn to play a musical instrument.
Sadly once again this has not happened, to next years list you go!
9.Participate in Operation Beautiful.
I shall get right on this :)
10.Try Zumba.
Have yet to try this exciting exercise, but if I don't get it in this year, expect to see it next!
11.Read 21 new books.
I am currently on book 9, but I have faith in my ability to finish 21. Check out my profile on Goodreads if you want the details.
12.Watch 21 new movies.
Done. obviously. Some really great ones this year. For a list check this out.
13.Cook 21 new foods.
Working my way up slowly. But this should be a piece of cake. Hey I have a recipe for cake :P
14.Send 21 letters.
A sweet sentiment
15. Learn to crochet.
Drat!
16. Reconnect with one friend.
I have made a few small connections with friends I have lost contact with in the past, which is a success in my eyes. But I think the major one is Jessica. I am so glad to have you in my life again and that we have grown so close!
17. Write. A short story, a play, anything. just write. Obviously bolding is obvious.
18. Get a job.
Sadly still no. I really hoped for this one this year.
19. Move out on my own.
Above answer applies.
20. Attend a major community event or festival
I actually attended a few this year. But I considered this done when I participated in Relay for Life. That was exactly the type of comunity feeling I was looking for! :)
21. Take what I have learned from my 20 years of life, take it remember it and move to the future. My life starts here.
Learning more and more each day.
So a final tally of 8/21 and you know what? I am actually happy with that. Hopefully I can use these next two months to get a few more in! Wish me luck! This has been an amazing year!
1.Participate in a walk for for a cause.
I am happy to say this was one of the first things I did after making this list. It was Relay for Life and was an unbelievably satisfying event :)
2.Take a kick-boxing class.
In fact now, if I'm not busy chatting away or gaming I get in at least 20 mins of kick boxing a day. It is a really fun workout that has you feel like you are exercising but having a blast doing it :D
3.Visit Shelby and Brock.
Well sadly, for obvious reason this will never happen. But I am happy at the time it was a goal of mine. On to the future now!
4.Bake a pie from scratch.
Have yet to do this but with autumn here finally, it seems like just the perfect time!
5.Take a striper-cise class.
Actually did the research for this and there are some options locally. Just gotta assemble the team!
6.Go vegetarian again.
Well eff. Holiday season is quickly approaching and no way I am having tofu turkey! I suppose I can go for a month, get my body all prepared for TURKEY DAY!
7.Try nutella.
Gawd. It is truly heaven. I heard this to be so but I could not believe it till opening my mouth!
8.Learn to play a musical instrument.
Sadly once again this has not happened, to next years list you go!
9.Participate in Operation Beautiful.
I shall get right on this :)
10.Try Zumba.
Have yet to try this exciting exercise, but if I don't get it in this year, expect to see it next!
11.Read 21 new books.
I am currently on book 9, but I have faith in my ability to finish 21. Check out my profile on Goodreads if you want the details.
12.Watch 21 new movies.
Done. obviously. Some really great ones this year. For a list check this out.
13.Cook 21 new foods.
Working my way up slowly. But this should be a piece of cake. Hey I have a recipe for cake :P
14.Send 21 letters.
A sweet sentiment
15. Learn to crochet.
Drat!
16. Reconnect with one friend.
I have made a few small connections with friends I have lost contact with in the past, which is a success in my eyes. But I think the major one is Jessica. I am so glad to have you in my life again and that we have grown so close!
17. Write. A short story, a play, anything. just write. Obviously bolding is obvious.
18. Get a job.
Sadly still no. I really hoped for this one this year.
19. Move out on my own.
Above answer applies.
20. Attend a major community event or festival
I actually attended a few this year. But I considered this done when I participated in Relay for Life. That was exactly the type of comunity feeling I was looking for! :)
21. Take what I have learned from my 20 years of life, take it remember it and move to the future. My life starts here.
Learning more and more each day.
So a final tally of 8/21 and you know what? I am actually happy with that. Hopefully I can use these next two months to get a few more in! Wish me luck! This has been an amazing year!
Florence + The Machine - Shake It Out
Thursday, October 13, 2011I don't mean to Flo spam... ok I do, but it seemed wrong that this song was not on my blog. Im unforgivably obsessed with it.
My new favorite, for my new beginning. Just perfect.
"I am done with my graceless heart. So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart"
Idealism has gotten the best of me.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
I'm sad at times, but Im happy. And I know that everything will be alright. Its just sometimes I feel like I don't fit in with this world. Like the dreams I have are just far too impossible. Like my ambitions and such are not right, too idealistic. Its not that I hate life. I just want so much more then this. This pressure...to be something. I want to be no one. Why can't I be no one and that be socially acceptable? What is me being no one doing to you? Why isnt my mind, my consciousness enough? Why do I have to be more? I just want to quit everything and travel the world. See beauty and love first hand. Sometimes I feel seeing it is enough you know. I am just so sick of feeling forced to be something.
But life isn't a novel. I can't just abandon responsibility and lead the life I want, as much as I feel entitled to do so.
But it is hard when you put yourself into extraordinary worlds were people are destined to be something great. I often compare my life with the characters in the books I read and think if it is possible for them, then shouldn't it be possible for me? How much of the stories I read is truly fictional? Has my imagination gotten the best of me? Thinking that extraordinaries exist in the life I have. That's something to think about. In books everything is great. Great Love. Great Pain. Great Struggle. Great Goal. Great. Where is my story about a mediocre nobody living their mediocre life happily. Probably in the bargain bin.
But life isn't a novel. I can't just abandon responsibility and lead the life I want, as much as I feel entitled to do so.
But it is hard when you put yourself into extraordinary worlds were people are destined to be something great. I often compare my life with the characters in the books I read and think if it is possible for them, then shouldn't it be possible for me? How much of the stories I read is truly fictional? Has my imagination gotten the best of me? Thinking that extraordinaries exist in the life I have. That's something to think about. In books everything is great. Great Love. Great Pain. Great Struggle. Great Goal. Great. Where is my story about a mediocre nobody living their mediocre life happily. Probably in the bargain bin.
