Thank you Paulo Coelho...
for once again shedding light on my dim areas. <3
“Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it. But in order to do that, we need the other person. The universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.”
“Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it. But in order to do that, we need the other person. The universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.”
A necessary interruption.
So tonight my heart was broken, my delicate heart, whom I never let anyone close to, not family or anything. Maybe I was vulnerable, maybe he was tricky, but Ive never felt like this. Its terrible. I thought he was special. I thought he was worth it, taking a chance letting him in, but there are no people like that. Because, ashley, lets face it no ones perfect. No one can fully open themselves to another person or fully put another before their own selfish feelings, I CANT EVEN DO IT! But I wont settle. I refuse to. I refuse to spend my days with someone who being with makes me feel so insecure, because the right person should alleviate all that. There is no love in this world, Im not saying it doesnt exist, but its just not seen here. Look at how people treat each other, its sick and wrong, we think love is about two people finding each other, "two bodies, one soul", but really its about compassion for other people, and that is seldom seen these days. I guess I was just seduced by the convenience of society's "love" and well, its nice to think that for once you are not alone in this world. But all we have is ourselves, relationships come and go, so do friendships, and people die. All we can do is take what they teach us and help it make us a better person. Because in the end when we pass, were all we have.
Day Nine.
Two songs. Wow even harder than two movies! These challenge people are crazy! As you read in my nine loves post, i believe, music is extremely important to me, more important than most other things in my life. It speaks to the depths of our souls and stimulates emotional responses we didnt even know we were capable of.
Song 1: Those You've Known by The Cast of Spring Awakening
A song from my favorite musical? Hardly surprising. But for some reason this scene above all others touched me dearly. The lyric, "Those you've known and lost still walk behind you" is something we all need to remember. Maybe I'm just a girl who lives a bit too much in the past as opposed to the future, but i think its important for us to remember that we all have an impact on each others lives and even if someone passes or leaves you, they are still with you in all that they helped you become.
Song 2: You Can't Always Get What You Want by The Rolling Stones
Another song with a great lesson. Because life is about not always getting what we want, but since when is anything we want ever what we really need. "If you try sometimes you find, you get what you need" and damn thats comforting. <3
Song 1: Those You've Known by The Cast of Spring Awakening
A song from my favorite musical? Hardly surprising. But for some reason this scene above all others touched me dearly. The lyric, "Those you've known and lost still walk behind you" is something we all need to remember. Maybe I'm just a girl who lives a bit too much in the past as opposed to the future, but i think its important for us to remember that we all have an impact on each others lives and even if someone passes or leaves you, they are still with you in all that they helped you become.
Song 2: You Can't Always Get What You Want by The Rolling Stones
Another song with a great lesson. Because life is about not always getting what we want, but since when is anything we want ever what we really need. "If you try sometimes you find, you get what you need" and damn thats comforting. <3
Day Eight.
Three Films. How can one make another one choose only 3 films? But alas The challenge has been accepted and I will do my best. Now I'm not going to sit here and type about my 3 favorite movies, because honestly I'll end up regretting choosing one over another and be mad at my whole challenge and the point is for a little self discovery not anger. So the movies I pick will be somewhat random.
Film 1: Aladdin
My favorite disney movie. Something about the story of a poor street rat unsure of who he is and what he wants to be, just struggling to get along really touches my heart. Actually, I do have to say that what gets me in Disney movies isnt the romantic parts, sure they are sweet but I'm a realist, even as a child I never thought that was how love would be. What gets me is the lesson each character has to find within themselves, a feat quite impressive for these barely legal characters, if legal at all lol. Disney movies are beloved because of the inspiration and motivation hidden behind their magical animations.
Film 2: Amelie
This was the last movie I saw for the first time. It was sweet, and sincere and very cute. It is a french film though so get your reading eyes ready :) Definitely worth a watch. It was adorably uplifting <3
Film 3: Inception
The movie next to me right now. I actually did not have the pleasure to see this in theaters, but I was convinced by a few close friends (Tyler and Shelby) to finally watch it so I did. Then I watched it again with my mother and again again with my mother. Needles to say I really really enjoyed this film and glad I didnt let all the hype of the movie stop me from seeing it. It taught me a good lesson, sometimes you cant be so hipster or you'll miss out on great things. Also being hipster is so mainstream now. ugh. :P
Film 1: Aladdin
My favorite disney movie. Something about the story of a poor street rat unsure of who he is and what he wants to be, just struggling to get along really touches my heart. Actually, I do have to say that what gets me in Disney movies isnt the romantic parts, sure they are sweet but I'm a realist, even as a child I never thought that was how love would be. What gets me is the lesson each character has to find within themselves, a feat quite impressive for these barely legal characters, if legal at all lol. Disney movies are beloved because of the inspiration and motivation hidden behind their magical animations.
Film 2: Amelie
This was the last movie I saw for the first time. It was sweet, and sincere and very cute. It is a french film though so get your reading eyes ready :) Definitely worth a watch. It was adorably uplifting <3
Film 3: Inception
The movie next to me right now. I actually did not have the pleasure to see this in theaters, but I was convinced by a few close friends (Tyler and Shelby) to finally watch it so I did. Then I watched it again with my mother and again again with my mother. Needles to say I really really enjoyed this film and glad I didnt let all the hype of the movie stop me from seeing it. It taught me a good lesson, sometimes you cant be so hipster or you'll miss out on great things. Also being hipster is so mainstream now. ugh. :P
Day Seven.
4 books. Books are things that can have huge influences on peoples lives. If a certain book is read at a certain time, the memories of it and lessons learned could last a lifetime. It's going to be immensely difficult to choose only four! I know for sure I'll be leaving some awesome ones out!
Book 1: The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
This book is nothing short of inspirational. I find myself going it back to the words of wisdom it had to offer on a daily basis. Paulo Coelho, has quickly become one of my favorite authors, just on this book, his blog and interviews alone. Ive picked up Warriors of Light, which I intend to read after I finish the current book I am on, and I firmly intend to pick up each one of his other works. I could write how much of an impact his words have on me, but just pick it up and read it for yourself.
Book 2: The Art of Racing in The Rain by Garth Stein
The book I am currently reading :) Its in the voice of a dog and just adorable. On the eve of his death, Enzo tells us about his life and the lessons about humans which he has learned. Its a pretty cool perspective, I am really enjoying it so far.
Book 3: Sheep in a Jeep by Nancy E. Shaw
I just adored this book as a child, It rhymed and had sheep, I mean who doesnt love sheep? There was actually an entire series of them, sheep in a shop, sheep on a ship, sheep out to eat, I could go on. But I will always remember this one most mainly because of the way my mom read it to me, with silly little voices. I swear I can still hear them whenever I read it :)
Book 4: 1984 by George Orwell
This is probably my favorite literary genre, sort of science-fiction if you will and Orwell just makes it become such a reality. A true visionary, he was way ahead of his time.
Book 1: The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
This book is nothing short of inspirational. I find myself going it back to the words of wisdom it had to offer on a daily basis. Paulo Coelho, has quickly become one of my favorite authors, just on this book, his blog and interviews alone. Ive picked up Warriors of Light, which I intend to read after I finish the current book I am on, and I firmly intend to pick up each one of his other works. I could write how much of an impact his words have on me, but just pick it up and read it for yourself.
Book 2: The Art of Racing in The Rain by Garth Stein
The book I am currently reading :) Its in the voice of a dog and just adorable. On the eve of his death, Enzo tells us about his life and the lessons about humans which he has learned. Its a pretty cool perspective, I am really enjoying it so far.
Book 3: Sheep in a Jeep by Nancy E. Shaw
I just adored this book as a child, It rhymed and had sheep, I mean who doesnt love sheep? There was actually an entire series of them, sheep in a shop, sheep on a ship, sheep out to eat, I could go on. But I will always remember this one most mainly because of the way my mom read it to me, with silly little voices. I swear I can still hear them whenever I read it :)
Book 4: 1984 by George Orwell
This is probably my favorite literary genre, sort of science-fiction if you will and Orwell just makes it become such a reality. A true visionary, he was way ahead of his time.
Day Six.
Five Foods. GRRR. I dont want to write about food. I haven't even eaten anything but saltines and jello for two days. (I was in the hospital last night)But I will try to remember, those foods that mean so much to me. Look at the bright side, I wont find any of this food appetizing by writing about them at all.
Food 1: Corned Beef and Cabbage
When I was a wee little thing, this was my favorite food. In fact not only did we have it for every St. Patricks Day, but I insisted It be my birthday dinner too. :D
Food 2: Squash
Man do I love this stuff! Every kind too. Butternut squash, spaghetti squash, acorn squash(oh I'm doing that Bubba thing again, you get the picture). Its all so delicious.
Food 3: Rice
MMM how I love rice. I dont think I have yet to come across a dish with rice and not like it. :D For me it enhances every dish, whether it is stuffed peppers to sushi :)
Food 4: Club
This is my go to food at every restaurant I eat at. In my life I have probably consumed more clubs, than any other food while eating out. So yummy :D
Food 5: Batter
Bring on the salmonella! I have been tasting every batter ever made by me, my mother, or my aunt since I was a kid. Luckily I have yet to be poisoned by it :D
Food 1: Corned Beef and Cabbage
When I was a wee little thing, this was my favorite food. In fact not only did we have it for every St. Patricks Day, but I insisted It be my birthday dinner too. :D
Food 2: Squash
Man do I love this stuff! Every kind too. Butternut squash, spaghetti squash, acorn squash(oh I'm doing that Bubba thing again, you get the picture). Its all so delicious.
Food 3: Rice
MMM how I love rice. I dont think I have yet to come across a dish with rice and not like it. :D For me it enhances every dish, whether it is stuffed peppers to sushi :)
Food 4: Club
This is my go to food at every restaurant I eat at. In my life I have probably consumed more clubs, than any other food while eating out. So yummy :D
Food 5: Batter
Bring on the salmonella! I have been tasting every batter ever made by me, my mother, or my aunt since I was a kid. Luckily I have yet to be poisoned by it :D
Day Five.
Six Places. Well this is just vague enough to work. I'll feel this list with places that mean something to me and places I desire to go, maybe places I never dream of going to again.
Place 1: The Rock
In my older house, back when I still lived in New York, we lived on the power lines. I loved this house and the massive woodland property and could fill this list with just places from there, but I am choosing the rock. Deep behind the power lines there was this gargantuan sized rock. I would love walking to it and sitting on it, climbing it, sledding down it. Today I can imagine me going there just to think or read, underneath the shade of the trees above it. My childhood was very much surrounded by nature.
Place 2: Central Park
Possibly my favorite place I have ever been to. Its like this amazing nature oasis hidden within the busy city of Manhattan. Never have I once gone to New York without visiting it. In fact when I was younger I used to beg to head there straight away. Also when I was younger, I dreamed of the day I would get married and hoped for it to be there. Hey there are worse places than a park next to the Plaza, right? But really just to be able to visit the park is a treat to my Floridian self nowadays, a treat I indeed always enjoy :D (plus I like trolling there)
Place 3: Anderson Theater
A very special place in my heart is reserved for this theater. It is here where I transformed into the girl I am today. It is here where I met life changing people, whom I was lucky enough to call friends. Here where I shared tears with those in their last play and where people shared their tears with me for mine. Here is where I learned so much about life and people, through the many roles I played and many plays I read. Here where I learned the value of hard work, and the pride of a job well done. You can say the stage teaches a girl a lot about how to live her life and cherish its secrets. But those are the secrets of a theater kid and a theater kid only.
Place 4: Stars Hallow
Yes, I am aware this is a fictional place, but Stars Hallow is by far the coolest town with the strangest and most wonderful community. If it existed I would love to live there.
Place 5: Peoria, Az
This place now holds a very special place in my heart, but thats for me to know why :P
Place 6: The Unknown world
All those places I desire going but have yet to see. I want to discover them. Places like Greece, France, Italy, Egypt, Ireland, Iceland, Spain, Russia, Prague (yes Im aware Prague is a city),any and everywhere the wind takes me. <3
Place 1: The Rock
In my older house, back when I still lived in New York, we lived on the power lines. I loved this house and the massive woodland property and could fill this list with just places from there, but I am choosing the rock. Deep behind the power lines there was this gargantuan sized rock. I would love walking to it and sitting on it, climbing it, sledding down it. Today I can imagine me going there just to think or read, underneath the shade of the trees above it. My childhood was very much surrounded by nature.
Place 2: Central Park
Possibly my favorite place I have ever been to. Its like this amazing nature oasis hidden within the busy city of Manhattan. Never have I once gone to New York without visiting it. In fact when I was younger I used to beg to head there straight away. Also when I was younger, I dreamed of the day I would get married and hoped for it to be there. Hey there are worse places than a park next to the Plaza, right? But really just to be able to visit the park is a treat to my Floridian self nowadays, a treat I indeed always enjoy :D (plus I like trolling there)
Place 3: Anderson Theater
A very special place in my heart is reserved for this theater. It is here where I transformed into the girl I am today. It is here where I met life changing people, whom I was lucky enough to call friends. Here where I shared tears with those in their last play and where people shared their tears with me for mine. Here is where I learned so much about life and people, through the many roles I played and many plays I read. Here where I learned the value of hard work, and the pride of a job well done. You can say the stage teaches a girl a lot about how to live her life and cherish its secrets. But those are the secrets of a theater kid and a theater kid only.
Place 4: Stars Hallow
Yes, I am aware this is a fictional place, but Stars Hallow is by far the coolest town with the strangest and most wonderful community. If it existed I would love to live there.
Place 5: Peoria, Az
This place now holds a very special place in my heart, but thats for me to know why :P
Place 6: The Unknown world
All those places I desire going but have yet to see. I want to discover them. Places like Greece, France, Italy, Egypt, Ireland, Iceland, Spain, Russia, Prague (yes Im aware Prague is a city),any and everywhere the wind takes me. <3
