So tonight my heart was broken, my delicate heart, whom I never let anyone close to, not family or anything. Maybe I was vulnerable, maybe he was tricky, but Ive never felt like this. Its terrible. I thought he was special. I thought he was worth it, taking a chance letting him in, but there are no people like that. Because, ashley, lets face it no ones perfect. No one can fully open themselves to another person or fully put another before their own selfish feelings, I CANT EVEN DO IT! But I wont settle. I refuse to. I refuse to spend my days with someone who being with makes me feel so insecure, because the right person should alleviate all that. There is no love in this world, Im not saying it doesnt exist, but its just not seen here. Look at how people treat each other, its sick and wrong, we think love is about two people finding each other, "two bodies, one soul", but really its about compassion for other people, and that is seldom seen these days. I guess I was just seduced by the convenience of society's "love" and well, its nice to think that for once you are not alone in this world. But all we have is ourselves, relationships come and go, so do friendships, and people die. All we can do is take what they teach us and help it make us a better person. Because in the end when we pass, were all we have.